Today’s been hard.
Actually, this whole week has been rough. But that’s life. I’m ok. And I know that if I’m not ok right now, I will be soon. It’s one of my mottoes.
I’ve learned how to cope with negative emotions. Not perfectly by any means, but I’m working on it, always. I have to remind myself of the lovely things in life. I’ve taken up making little lists—things to do when I’m feeling down to cheer myself up, simple moments that I love, though often forget, feelings, emotions, words.
Today I chose to be alone. To sit with my cat, curled up under a blanket, sipping hot tea, soft jazz painting the backdrop… I’m reading and writing and trying not to worry. Trying not to cry. Changing my focus.
To the total silence before a storm
A cat’s purrs and a cat’s paws
To sunrises and sets
The first star of night
Early morning fog and the first birdsong
To old book smells
Candles on drizzly days
When a baby smiles
And rumbles of thunder in the distance
Or flashes of lightning right next to you
And the chill that rushes up your spine
The little things
Not forgotten. No, I won’t forget. I will remember. Remember and feel better. More whole. More alive.
I will look at my life and choose to see the lovely.